Disappointment and Goals not met...

I'm a disappointment in the world of the blog. I have not blogged in two weeks. Nor have I dieted or worked out. At this moment, our world has been turned upsidedown. I've gone back to work. Charlie stopped sleeping through the night. So, needless to say things have not worked out according to my master plan.

Here is where I'll be spending my focus.
1. Spending as much time as possible with the cutest baby ever.
2. Find different ways to get exercise (even if that means hiking with Rachel). : )
3. Find fun things to do as a family.
4. Try to make a variety of healthy/easy meals.

I'm forgetting about the weightloss goals for now. Because I just can't focus on that with so much on my plate. Maybe soon though, maybe still in time to lose some weight before an April wedding and June at the beach.

 *fingers crossed*

I AM the Queen of Excuses

I am the Queen. The Queen of Excuses.

"But I'm so tired."
"But we're on vacay!"
"I'll do better tomorrow."
"It's just so expensive to by fresh, healthy foods."
"I just had so much to do today."
"But we don't have any groceries." (sometimes a very valid excuse)
"But I was so good this week."

But, but, but, but, but, but.

As of last week, I had lost 8 pounds! Ugh...all of which I'm sure I've gained back since. Last week was a different kind of week. I started out relatively on the right track and slowly veered off the track and straight off the cliff. I will not even begin to list my multitude of sins...but here's just a "taste" of what the week looked like for me food-wise. Hot dogs, hamburger and french fries (twice), ice cream every day (sometimes twice), Reece's Pieces, Swedish Fish, sweet tea and soda of all kinds. *SIGH* I was doing so well. But the excuses just kept flying out of my mouth. And don't even get me started on the exercise...it just wasn't happening at all.

Sadly, I'll weigh myself tomorrow and realize truly how far I am from my 10 pound goal that I am supposed to make by Thursday... THURSDAY!?!? Can it really be 4 days from now? Geez. I'm feeling pretty discouraged right now... but I have to keep in mind that things will be very different once school starts back tomorrow and I'll just have to make adjustments to my life and my schedule to make sure that I'm doing what's best for me and best for my family. I have to stay on track to help us become an active and healthy family.

I promise to be a better blogger.

I've been a terrible blogger this week...and a semi-terrible dieter. We've been busy, out of town, and without Internet since the last time I blogged. I have, however, lost a total of 8 pounds. What, what?! That means I'm 2 pounds away from my goal weight for Thursday of NEXT week hookers! AND that's with being a horrible blogger and a semi-horrible dieter! I have been keeping terrific records though. Just so you know. :) Because I've been slacking on my blog for so many days and feel the need to record my every bite, this will be a little boring. Later, though I'll be adding to my Family Fun page! And I promise not to be so boring after this.

Wednesday
Breakfast: 2 eggs, toast, cheese
Snack: cheese and crackers
Lunch: Pasta, salad, 2 bread sticks, 2 delicious brownies!
Snack: apple
Dinner: chicken, red pepper, black bean quesadilla and 6 Swedish fish
Exercise: Power 90

Thursday
Breakfast: Cereal and milk
Snack: Greek yogurt, cheese and crackers
Lunch: Chicken, pasta salad, green salad, 1 delicious brownie
Snack: Apple
Dinner: Tuna sandwich, pretzels, carrots
Snack: Greek yogurt
Exercise: Power 90

Friday
Breakfast: Cereal and milk
Snack: Cheese and Crackers, yogurt
Lunch: 1/2 baked potato, salad, pasta salad, 2 bread sticks, 2 cookies
Snack: 4 pieces of chocolate
Snack: Mocha Frap...sue me.
Dinner: Salad, 1 piece pizza
Snack: Granola and milk

Saturday
Breakfast: egg, bacon, and cheese sandwich, wild cherry Pepsi
Lunch: Meatloaf, fresh green beans, homemade creamed corn, fried potatoes, sweet tea (MMMMMM)
Dinner: Pad Kee Mao
Snack: Hot Fudge Sundae

Sunday
Breakfast: Spaghetti
Snack: Mocha Frap...sue me. I love them.
Lunch: 2 ham sandwiches
Snack: fudge round
Dinner: steak, corn, chips and artichoke dip, sweet tea, and a delicious piece of Oreo cake
Exercise: 2 hours of moving furniture in my classroom

Monday
Breakfast: Cereal and milk
Lunch: double cheeseburger, small fry, sweet tea
Snack: another delicious piece of Oreo cake (don't worry I finished it off)
Dinner: chicken salad croissant (OK, 2) and fruit

Hmmm...not so good... You can see how my will power fails during the weekend and also sometimes even spreads into the next week. I'm worried about this weekend too, especially since we'll be traveling starting on Wednesday...Yikes. That's lots of eating out...and probably Pepsi. Let's see...that means I'll have 4 days to lose whatever I gain back. ugh.

Better than expected.

Today was much better than expected. Yesterday, however...entirely different story. I started crying Sunday night. Monday morning I cried all the way to Nana's, cried at Nana's, cried all the way to my workshop (causing my eyes and face to be noticeably splotchy and red) and then cried some more every time someone talked to me, put their hand on my shoulder, or even just looked at me with that pitiful all-knowing look.  I was a mess most of the day. At lunch I decided I'd take my dear friend Rachel to Nana's just to see Charlie for a minute...TOTALLY helped. I was able to spend the rest of the day much less distraught than I spent the morning. Today was easy peasy. The problem is I still have one more week to spend entirely with Charlie before school starts, and I'm trying not to anticipate a similar situation when it's time to start back to work for more than just 1 week.

I really need to weigh myself. I haven't done it in over a week and I was hoping to weigh myself every day. The problem is our scale is not digital so I cannot tell if there's a small change. Small changes are motivating. I might need to get a digital scale this weekend.

Monday
Breakfast - 2 eggs, cheese, toast
Snack - cheese and crackers
Snack - cherry Greek yogurt, 1/4 bagel w/ cream cheese
Lunch - 3in turkey and cheese sub, 3in ham and cheese sub
Snack - apple
Dinner - 2 marinated, baked drumsticks, 1 corn muffin
Snack - blueberry Greek yogurt
Exercise - NADA...it was hard enough being away from my boy and then lots of drama at the casa

Tuesday
Breakfast - 2 eggs, cheese, toast
Snack - cheese and crackers, cherry Greek yogurt
Lunch - chicken salad, pasta salad, mixed green salad...2 delicious brownies
Snack - apple
Dinner - pita pizza (I should have had something else here)
Snack - banana and peanut butter
Exercise - Power 90 cardio and ab workout (like P90x, but much much much easier)

My friend Megan, who I mentioned in an earlier post has started posting her weight each week...she's amazingly brave. I admire her tremendously. I've been toying with the idea too...but I'm not sure I'm ready just yet.